|Maddy, Mom and Me -- 2009|
I miss you. I think of you every day.
I can hardly believe it's been a year now that you've been gone. It's been a really difficult year without you.
I miss your hugs, our daily phone conversations and hearing your calm sweet voice on the other end. You were always the one I could go to who would listen to my joys, my worries, my problems, the big and the little things and would quietly reassure me that everything would be all right. You were my (and all of our) biggest cheerleader.
The whole family has been lost without you. Maddy misses you. She had a dream about you recently, but didn't want to tell me about it because she thought it would make me cry -- that did make me cry. She loves to hear about you and the stories you told me about growing up on the farm. She was thrilled to learn you had a horse when you were a little girl, but sad to hear that it was hit by lightning when it took shelter under a tree during a storm! She and I love to look at the photos of all of us in younger days. We laugh together at our silly hairstyles, just like you and I did too.
I do feel your love surrounding me and the rest of the family. Last week on my way to work, I glanced out the window and saw the most beautiful heart-shaped image made up of two clouds. I felt like you sent it just for me. And yes, that did make me cry too.
You were such a blessing in our lives. Love you always,